Christopher Jack Marris

Christopher Jack Marris
I didn't go away I'm just fishing

At Jesus Feet

I'll lay life down at Jesus feet,
'Tis my sacrifice not mere defeat.
Without sorrow without regret,
All earthly things I shall not fret.
I have no need for selfish pride,
There is nothing for me to hide.
For Jesus paid the price for me,
Held ransom just to set me free.
I'll lay it down to find my way,
He'll grant me wisdom as I pray.
I'll devote my life for God's will,
With human faults He'll love me still.
Carry my cross with each new day,
God will always lead my way.
My faith will shine the light to see,
The journey God's plan chose for me.
God gives us each His love to share,
Our unique way to show we care.
There's special work He called us for,
Knock and God will open the door.

Copyright ©2008 Sharon Cutshall


Tuesday, March 07, 2006

In Memory Of Chris 11/14/73~8/31/00

Chris completed suicide 8/31/00,at the age of 26.Just seven days before we had the conversation of suicide,Chris said he would never harm himself. There wasn't a day that went by that Chris didn't call me and say Good Morning Got Sunshine in your heart?I will never hear that again,only the echos in my mind I will hear.The morning of August 31,2000 I became a Parent of Suicide.I kept waiting for the "Good Morning Sunshine "that never came.I thought well I will give him till 11am maybe he slept late 11:00 am My house swarmed with Police officers.My brother was one of the Officers motioned for my husband to come outside,of course me I crept to the door to hear what was going on All I remember is Chris and hang last night.Our world has been forever changed since will never be the same.OurHearts cry.Please if you are feeling suicidal please please get some help.Someone does care,and there is help out there. Or just keep Holding On .More and More is being done about mental help for those who feel they can't go on and just want the pain to go away.If you feel suicidal -SEE A DOCTOR - There is help you are not Alone others are feeling or have felt what you are feeling .It doesn't mean you are crazy,you just need some help.In an emergency Call 1-800-273-Talk(1-800-273-8255)

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Just wanting to say that I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful son. My prayers are with you. Debbie

Anonymous said...

Hello.I just wanted to say i am SOOO sorry for your loss. I have been batteling mental illness most all of my life .Thankfully I have never succeded in my many attempts to kill myself.
I will pray for you.
Chris is pain free now .AMEN
Peacefullf and God Bless
CAROL

Dianna said...

Hope you are having a Happy Fourth of July my sweet Angel Man.I miss and love you so much
Mom

Anonymous said...

Dianna, I never realized how incredibly beautiful your Chris was... I mean, I know because you are so wonderfully beautiful inside that he had to be beautiful inside... but he was actually a gorgeous young man! And he looks so happy in this picture that he simply glows... I've often wondered how a person hides behind such a lovely contented face when their heart is obviously shattered. Do you think it's years of practice hiding what they truly feel inside or do you think it's a sudden moment of pain that they simply can't escape from?
Thank you so much for sharing with me...
Always here if you need me.
Love, Cyssi

Anonymous said...

Wow this has to be so hard. He was such a Gorgous man and seemed in the pictures to have been so happy. God Bless you and Your family. Hope that recovery is on your side.

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas in Heaven my little man,I love you and miss you soooo much Chris,you would think the missing you would lessen after six years but it only seems worse at times.Lately it is hard.I need to feel your love around me son.I wish you were here.
Love you so much mom.

Anonymous said...

dianna, I am so sorry for your loss, Prayers are with you!
God bless dianna.

Pat B/ScrapPatch Moderator

Dianna said...

Another Easter without you my little man,Oh I miss you so much Chris wish you were here.I went to church yea me and Dad went to church,Your Uncle had a part in a play his words was awesome.He has become an amazing brother to me,also aunt Kaye has become a good friend,as I'm sure you know they have a loss to deal with also.I'm so sad for them and any parent that has to walk down this journey,it is such a lonely road we travel without our children.We will always wonder and ask the if's ands and but's if only's.No answer is easy to figure out if any.
But just know i love you so does dad.I know your brothers do also,although not much mentioned,I know they miss you so much,
Billy is doing good right now I'm really proud of him.Please Chris look down on your brothers and be their gaurdian angel guide them in the right direction.Bobby really needs to be touched.All I can do is pray.
Almost time for fishing,I'm sure though your are fishing all the time.I miss you baby boy so much.
Love Mom.
Your memories is what keeps us alive.

Carol Lafollette-Walker said...

Dianna Carol here from our crochet group..the one that wants to make a blogspot. I am so sorry for your loss, I understand, my 22 yr old son drowned while drunk in 98. Two months later my grandson (Brennan's ) 2 yr old son died. At the time he was my only grandchild. I didn't get help for my depression, almost commited suicide, but was saved before it could happen. I still miss them terribly. I have a blog for him on my hotmma profile on eons.com

maria conner said...

diana, it's me maria. i have been searching for you for a long time. i guess that i should have searched under chris's name sooner. i had no idea. what happend? he was so happy when we hung out together. please contact me on facebook. i realy want to talk. i miss ya'll so much. i love you. you're baby sis.

Dianna said...

Maria if you read this,I tried looking for you on FB no luck.email me at theangelpatch@aol.com
Dianna